A Treacherous Heart (R’s song)

I’ve spent so many years yearning to know who you were, what you were, how you were.

So many months longing for an embrace, your embrace, a trace of what was, a feeling, a glimmer of what I thought was so real.

So many weeks searching my heart for the courage to let go, to make sense of the senseless.

So many days with little hope for the return of what my innermost thoughts craved so desperately.

So many hours of despair.

No more minutes or seconds of pining away over, desiring of, aching ,and longing for those lost moments in time.

It has finally been laid to rest.

All of the accumulated time that a treacherous heart has wasted, searching for ghosts of the past. I will look no more for that that does not want to be found.

No more mindless, or mindful thinking of what may have been.

This heart will betray me no more.

It is over. It is done.